Wrap Myself in Blankets

Part one, “The Email,” is about an email I received about a seemingly more minor event in life, but it caught me off guard and triggered a decent amount of fear and shame. Coincidentally, a few weeks later I had another experience with a similar sentiment of unsettledness. After that email, part of my response was going easy on myself the following day, as detailed in “Wrap Myself in Blankets.”

What do we do when things rub us the wrong way? How can we release the negativity that remains long after the occurrence has ceased?

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The Email

His words stung
His tone stung even more
How could I feel so much blame
for something that I didn’t do wrong

He even acknowledged 
	it wasn’t my fault

But that I would have to pay
anyway for the blanket of
the damage

He acknowledged it wasn’t my fault
but his tone told me otherwise

I was sent straight back to principal’s office
The one that I so coyly evaded, 
Or so I thought

Counted to 60 in a bathroom stall
And returned to class

But years later we did meet
And boy did his admonishment sting

This time I didn’t do anything wrong
But the hostility and guilt
got laid on,
cuz I was the one who was there

The one brave enough to show up
To do thing the right way

And when things went awry
I was the only one there

So I was the one that heard about it
The only one who could correct the situation
	Even though I hadn’t caused the problem in the first place

I absorbed all the negative energy
Of the interaction
And interpreted it as self-blame

But now I see it in a different light
Not blamery but bravery

For I showed up and did things right
And I stand tall
Knowing I had the guts
To weather the storm

For I didn’t take the path of least resistance, 
Not that of self-servitude
But one of truth

And I stand by it
And let life take its course

Knowing I made the right choice
Affirming my commitment to what is right

And honoring myself for making the decision
Since it is not the easiest one

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Wrap Myself in Blankets

Wrap myself in blankets 
Save money on heat
Why rely so much on technology anyway
Connect to the elements
Peace is within nature
Peace is within my nature
But covered in layers
Of heated obligations
I fear for my security
My mind races to figure out a solution
But haven’t I done everything I can?
All I can do is wait
	for others
Trust 
	that the universe has my back

And, at the very least,
Cover mine with a comfortable cloak
Shield my sensitive soul
Protect my aching heart
Provide a fortress for the glow of my soul

That role belongs to me
	and no one else.

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